Dear Lilian,
Sorry that this has to be addressed to you. Written in tears and shaky hands contains a message from deep down a caring and motherly heart.
You know by now how much I care about you and even if at least I have not always been there I have tried to show it somehow.
Any way, this is what I want to say, In my life I have gone through some very troubling experiences among them rape and lots of rejection and although I never had the courage to share this with you I want you to know that I would not want anyone to go through anything I have gone through. That is why I always commit myself to taking you home after our church meetings to make sure you are safe.
I have however come to realize that as much as I want to, I can not always protect you. There are times when I need some space for other issues in life and sometime I have so much that I go through. I can not carry this anymore and I feel you are old enough to understand that I will not always be there for you.
I know its hard, but I have thought of that day when I will not be with you and even those days when you go to school by yourself and the only thing I can do for you is to let you know so that you can be able to take care of yourself.
I want you to know that even when I will not be there for you, I always cared and if there shall come a time when you need a friend to talk to and to walk you home again I will be there.
Signed with love,
Jey.
