Don't blame the man, you created the bitterness yourself.
When you first met, friendship blossomed and sooner than you thought everything else became history. You professed you love for him and dying-ly swore to him that the world would never part you. You gave it all to him, the love of your life. Things were good, at least they seemed so. You had finally gotten what you wanted in a man. It was not long before you sought for that "candid advice' on how to treat him. and even without a thought put the advice to work. So you wanted his money not his heart in exchange for your love. You wanted the high life and all the bliss and so you suddenly got a new lock to your heart. He loved, yes he did... he tried his best to keep you close. He gave you the money, but it was not enough. He took you places, you were not satisfied. While you were gaining, he was loosing out. His emotions were drained, his finances were tight and when you talked about it, the best you did was to lie on that bed and offer your body to him. You know why he took it? He wanted to keep you close....Your thirst, however, dissatisfied, you went on to look for more investors... time and again you fought because you were too busy 'doing business'.
When you had enough of the fights, you decided to leave. and when you did, all you left behind was a poor broke man with a broken heart and a broken promise. The bitterness you created in him, was as loud as the grave silence but you did not even care. So, you turned him from the love of your life to all the ugliest and funniest names.
Mmh, investments grew and deals got better, but when the investors reaped their profit they too left. Others could not wait because the deal was weak. Now here you are, aging poor and desperate for love. So desperate that you find yourself in the hands of any man who looks at you twice. still you will not be satisfied. Because the bitterness you created still lingers on.
It has grown a routine and now when they come, 'they just do what they want' and leave you.
You have been rubbed with all roughness, bruised and now you have a wound. this wound grows deeper with every engagement, but he is still as bitter as the wound you have.
So, stop branding them with the same label; the label you marked yourself. Don't accuse them of the bitterness they rubbed in you because somewhere another bitter soul breeds.
I will tell you this, the bitter soul will heal and with time it will blossom again and love. This time with caution but with every step, it will grow fond and passion will overwhelm. This love will be true and the edges you trimmed will be the walls that will protect it. The lessons of the past will be its strength. But before you heal, before you treat the wound, before you cover the scar, he will be happy. So, when you meet him with a smile do not trigger the memories. Do not be sad, because you created the bitterness yourself. Set him free, stop accusing him, and just know that with time, you too will heal.
So stop blaming him, you created the bitterness yourself.
