Because He loved me...

When I first met Him, nothing stood out for me other than being an ordinary man. So I took Him to be just like the rest of the men I had known. I did not pay attention and even tried to avoid Him, especially His conversation. Those who knew Him before me advised me that He was a good person but no, that was not what I was looking for. All I wanted was someone who would make me feel important and loved by my own descriptions. Yes, I wanted some fun and that I had but from others who were not like Him. He wanted me to follow Him and just obey but that was a little too much of Him asking, it was like a command. I had not had enough, I kept telling myself. I thought I had it all until it wasn't fun any more.
Then I came to this time and I felt completely empty. All the years of fun gone by just felt wasted. I could count all the things I had done only to end up soaked in tears. There was nothing to look back to and not even a thing to hope for.
I went to them that had been my friends in our good times and they turned their backs on me. The men who danced with me in the rain and in disco lights could not sit with me now. All the laughter and joy had withered into tears and regret. It was all gone. I felt used, wasted, hated and abused.
 I had come to an end. My thoughts and acts were nothing but the end. Life had come to an end....
So now i had to do it; end it for my self. I searched trees, bridges, cliff, highways.... what would be the easiest! The I finally made my mind.
While I sat there in my last thoughts, in painful memories and in regret, He appeared just from no where. I wanted to run to Him, but strength failed me. He stood there patiently looking at me and then He stretched out His arms for me. I was hesitant and then something caught my attention, He had large marks of scars on His hands. I shivered. Was he a criminal? How did he get hurt? Was he here to hurt me too? I asked myself. But when He spoke, this is what He said to me. "Child I did this for you. While you were still running around trying to find love and happiness, I gave up my life to have you live. All this while my hands were open to receive you and offer the comfort you wanted but you were too busy to notice me." I cried, I wanted to explain it but He would not let me. He said, "child, I was always with you. I walked beside you and sometime behind you. I even walked ahead just to make sure you are safe, so I know it all. Just come back to me." I walked to His arms, and from that moment I felt warmth, love and so much peace in my heart. He lifted me from the dust, dirt and filth that I had emersed myself in. Then He started walking away and I begged Him to stay or at least let me go with Him.
This assurance He gave me.... I WILL BE WITH YOU TO THE VERY END OF TIME, and I will always walk with you, you just have to believe.